Unfolding on the Mat
Expanded Content and Thoughtful Guidance
I LOVE Wednesday and Friday mornings. As in, can't wait to get up and get going, LOVE it. Why? Because I'm DANCING AGAIN!! Not for a show, not for a judge, not for an audition or an audience--for FUN. And it's so much more! I'm releasing old stories of perfection of form, competition with others, and fears of appearance. I'm shaking off inhibition and dancing like no one is watching in a room full of people. I haven't danced like this without tequila ever before in my LIFE! And at 9 AM for heaven's sake! Dr. Deb Kern is the goddess that leads us. This is my story of a class I took in early January when I was trying figure out (or listening for, really) my new year's intention...
January 23, 2019
After much dancing and energy clearing, I step out to get a drink of water. It is here that my 2019 intention comes to me: DECISIVENESS. This year, I will make a decision, and just keep going.
With this new intention and energy within me, I re-enter the dance class to experience what this FEELS like.
When I return, it is to the free-form, music-filled, suggestion-driven part of the class, where Deb calls out to us with words of encouragement and suggestions for how to break habit and move freely through the space. To practice decisiveness, I choose a straight line from one corner of the room diagonally across to the other side. There is a sea of women dancing and moving. Some are staying in place, arms waving and swaying. Some are traveling and turning, spiraling as they go. They look like a swirling sea of kelp and mermaids!
I begin my journey with eyes forward and steps determined, arms moving slowly like a locomotion. Obstacles in the form of dancing women cross my path or are right in it. If I move too quickly, we will crash. Sometimes I'm almost walking in place, but each step is at least inches forward. On occasion, I meet the eyes of one of these obstacles--we smile, but I do not stop my forward movement. I make it across, and turn to look back.
The obstacles now look like milestones on my path of progress. They were there to teach me and challenge me. What do I learn when someone steps in front of me? What do I feel when it seems I can will them to move? If they were to question my path, my decision, could I maintain my courage and conviction? YES. I decide where I want to go, and with Divine guidance I will get there. I remember times I have adjusted my plans, acquiesced my goals, stepped aside to let life flow more easily. I have no regret of the past, but a future like this feels exciting!
No turning back feels scary and vulnerable.
But so does dancing in a room full of people as if no one is watching.
I hope you stay with me as I unveil where I'm heading. There's no turning back!
What is your intention for this year? Tell me in the comments section so we can support each other!
Jessica lives, has a family, and teaches yoga in Austin, Texas.